30 May, 2011

Sunflowers and Roses

I reach for the handle, pull the door open and step inside. My eyes adjust as the lights display the scene before me. Not sure what's going on I freeze in the doorway. Slowly you approach and take my hand; leading me farther into the house. All around me I see roses and, my favorite, sunflowers. The table is set for two and lit only by three candles. You guide me to a chair, pull it out for me and seat me at one end of the small table. I watch you walk around to the opposite side and take a seat across from me. "What's going on?" I think to myself, still too stunned to actually speak.
Looking at you I see my favorite smile on your face, it's one of complete joy. You pick a bottle and a wine glass and start to pour the blood red contents into a glass then hand it to me. I take it and wait as you pour your own glass. You offer a toast, to our love, to our life, and to our future; then we drink. You start to serve me a dinner that looks like it took hours to prepare and once we both have our dinner before us we take a moment to bless the food and time we are sharing together.
We eat and talk about our days. Then as we finish you come over to me and offer your hand for me to accept. I reach out, trusting to follow you. We move outside and there is another table with candles and dessert on the balcony. I walk to the railing to look out at the stars; my favorite part of the night sky, and get lost in my thoughts for a moment. The night has been so perfect that I feel as though it's almost a dream. You speak my in barely more than a whisper, yet it startles me. Not expecting to hear someones voice so close to me as I'm lost in my own head, I turn to see you on your knee holding an open velvet covered box. Instantly my hands cover my mouth in shock and pure joy. You ask if I will be your bride and I shake my head, yes. Tears flowing from my eyes you stand to slide the silver band onto my left ring finger.

02 May, 2011

Fragile

Look at this heart, see how beautiful it is? See how fragile it is? It's the same for the heart of every person you meet. Each heart has a specific beat and radiance of it's own, though sometimes those might be hidden under years of trials that have left behind scars or hardened them to a point that seems almost irrepairable. Don't ever assume you can treat people as you please because you might take part in turning something as beautiful as this picture into something resembling coal.

Storybook

This is where the story ends
This is where we begin
To fall apart or stand strong
Take my hand and follow me
I'll show you all you need to be
So this world will not control you
It's not what you've become
You're just coming undone
This is where the story starts
With the breaking of our hearts
To show a love we could never afford

03 March, 2011

Don't Want to Say Goodbye

I don't wanna make the same mistake
Fall into the same routine
and fall out of love with you
I wanna hold on tight
Take this crazy ride called life
~~~
Take me by the hand and lets run
We gotta get away and free ourselves
Flying so high we touch the sky
Look me in the eyes as we never go back
~~~
I don't wanna know what it's like
not having you by my side
Thinking of losing you
is something I cannot do
I don't want to say goodbye
~~~
So take me by the hand and lets run
We gotta get away and free ourselves
Flying so high we touch the sky
Look me in the eyes and we never go back

28 February, 2011

Now Is Not Forever

In the words of B.Reith:

Now is not forever
All that's seen will fade away
These wars will end
There is an antidote
To heal your broken pain
There is a lifeline that hides
Insides the maker of your frame
He gave His life
Hold you head up high
You will get by
You will get by

Hold your head high
You will get by

So, every time I turn around I find one more person that I miss; and each time I realize I miss someone new my heart breaks that much more. I just got one of my friends back into my life and now he's gone off to join the Navy. It's killing me not being able to talk to him at all. I got used to talking to him multiple times a week and seeing him just as much. I pray that he's doing well and that I will hear something from him soon. Waiting has never been one of my strong points and having to sit around and be patient untill I get a letter(or even a phone call) is not something I am comfortable with. *sigh*

I'm trying to trust God to take care of him, of course that's always much easier said than done. Stupid human habits!

09 January, 2011

Love Letter

My Love,
Your smile, your eyes, your hugs, your laugh; the way you shine in every way. These are the things I love about you. How you calm my crazy mind with one look, one hug, one word. I fell in love and didn't know until now. I have watched you grow into a wonderful, strong man of God. I pray that one day I can tell you these things. I see you strength and long to know it; to have that same light you have to love the way you love. I pray I get to stand by your side the rest of my life and watch as you continue to grow, everyday, in Christ.

I love you, now and always.

01 December, 2010

Healing

This might sting, it might hurt
But I learn from each tear that falls
All the pain I keep inside
will get better in time
I might stumble, I might fall
But I will get up in the end
I will brush this off and move along
This is not the end, He is there to lift me up.